but honestly…. I kind of regret joining Tri Sigma. Not because it isnt everything ive ever wanted, because its that and so much more. But through this i have met some of the most amazing girls, each of whom i want to get to know so much more than i can. Im ALWAYS busy. Always. I was having a hard enough time seeing my few friends from before, and i just added 80 girls to a long list of guilt that i can never see! I just dont know what to do. School comes first, i get it. But why does it have to take up all of my time. Why did i wait so long to face my damn fears and rush again? Its not fair to me, and its not fair to all of my sisters who think i think im too stuck in my bubble to care. I do care. I care about every single one of those girls. But i dont get to show it. And i dont know if i ever will. 

To my sisters who are reading this, please know that I dont want to seclude myself like i do. please please know that.